愛我還是他

I dunno what I did yesterday. I started off with a hope of something and ended off wandering for a really long time.
I walked round & round, taking meaningless photos. From Raffleslink to Marina Promenade, off to Raffles place to Cityhall, took the train wanted to alight at Orchard , then Toa Payoh but ended up at Jurong East. Wanted to meet him for dinner but ended up blinking off my tears at the interchange.

I was sad not because he made me sad but I was sad that how unselfish his love is.(And how selfish I am, always.)
I am sad not just because I may break his heart one day but he knew that I may break his heart one day and still allows the day to come.

I wanted so badly for a sign, a hint or just a command. Tell me what I should do next for the best of everyone.